i am fighting for what side. i know the answer

Confusion

I miss my son who I never call or see and do not send nearly enough financial help. His sister is right there and I often have remind myself that she is there and they still love me I cry my son I know our roads will meet again by then I know I will have what is required to raise you. I love you and I cry for you everyday. I am more like my dad then I thought fuckkkk.

restart

so here it goes my new way of journaling i am so mad at myself right now and its making me even more angry that i refuse to cry and release this fucking pain iam holding in my body no  no more will i hold my tongue for the sake of  for twill i sacrifice my health for the sake of sparing someones feeling who warrents no such courtsey when dealing with some one of such nature you owe no respest in approach as they do not feel you are worththe respest you think you have for yourself do not wait for any mutha fuckin body to pou0r your fucking drink for you nigga you know bettger do better niggs do fuvkin better nigga lets go you  got this this aint shit release this releaese it. fuck you bitch the next as i know there will be a next time i got you, i am coming for you. you have been in the place i frequent the restroom on many occasions. without reciprocity ( so what if not spelled wright) laugh laugh laugh laugh laugh agugh stop it not her or your fault she stupidfor not reconiging the real light in her trio and maybe i am doing the same in my family i feel better the for listening world peace